Losing Henry

10:30am
Losing Henry has taken all the love out of my heart. I have nothing dependable on which to put my love.

I can't believe all these people who have been harrassing me could be so cruel. When I reflect on this new place to live, the only reason , really, that I like it here is there there is a modicum of 'safety', their being enough people around. Except of course, as is their want, as they say, they have also informed that they can conveniently not 'be around'...or in the case of the caretakers..concoct a story by which they could gain entry. So I am not really safe...and from what one might ask...and why. The other reason , perhaps, that I have said that I like this place is that there are 'updated' elements...(and god, that is not saying much with what is available these days. Just look at the HGTV channel)...so really I have lost everything that really should mean anything to me. On top of that...these people are so cruel..that they want to emphasize to me how little of value I am by not even wanting to buy things for which I have given many in their group top dollar and for which they will not even buy back for 10 cents on the dollar. EG. the computer.

I really don't know what to do. I feel like all my hopes and dreams for any kind of future are gone. It is not like I can revel in the 'social club' since everything 'social' is too stressful to consider.

Marissa in Medicine Hat was so right. The absolute thing that I do need is Henry. And how is that possible.

I can't believe everyone is so cruel...and lacking in understanding.