Baby Dog and the Daffodils

This is one of my favourite photos...but I might include some of the others in this file.


Noon

This is what I came up with when looking for an answer inside: Here is another example of how people on the autism spectrum (a hidden disability) are often taken advantage of because of their inability to adequately defend themselves. (This is a documented and discussed fact). Before I was able to successfully upload this photo..I tried the first time..to add it to one of the other previously written editions...(where I thought it would fit into the flow of what was being discussed in a more appropriate manner)..only to find that 'someone' had attached something to my cursor. Possibly to monitor me or steal something that they might find useful to them (lord knows what!)...but I noticed it was attached when I went to sign-in. If I had been smarter I would have shut down the computer and perhaps it would have dislodged them...but no...because of the AS, even when I noticed it...I went ahead and entered my private information..my name and password..with the little shit attached..and lo, my photo did not do what it was supposed to do..and also I got that jiggle on the screen which indicates something is going somewhere...but obviously not to the correct place. This kind of thing makes me very angry. I am sick of it. And frustrated with myself...but mostly with anyone who would do it in the first place.


6:30pm

What I hate about all the monitoring that goes on, is that nobody gets to know me ON MY OWN MERIT...in other words, the way most people get to know each other. There is no getting to know you by shared activites and honest, heart-felt attraction..so that you are seen as a person....not an object to control at all costs. So if I make a mistake or make a comment that a certain person does not like (or judges in a particular fashion) they can come back at me without ever having interacted with me in any way. What kind of crap is that? Who do they fucking think they are?


8:30pm

So I have gone around the block again..about half an hour..plus the jaunt into Quinn Drive on the off chance I might see "Annie". Actually I have worked out it is more like 16 blocks. It is such a huge area of land...where they used to have the community gardens except for the last two years. Soon it will be 'developed' and who knows what will happen..certainly it won't be the relatively quiet pastoral scene that it is now...with geese and various other creatures attempting to make nests in the spring. I am trying to build up my stamina. Tonight was not toooo bad. My legs get tired very quickly though. We met a poodle, Nessie, on the way and had a pat.

I had a false start in getting a resume to a place for a job in the paper. Couldn't find anyone to give it to. Will try tomorrow. But wrote the letter to Cambridge about the Art and Music Event they are having in September.

I am going to attempt to post another photo. Actually to go with the theme of quiet enjoyment I will post the pot with bachelor buttons made by L.D.