6:30am
I guess there are so many things one could write about in a day...so many thoughts. I do not feel I am out of he woods here in this place by any means. Just because I am no longer being exploited by Jim does not mean there are similar players lurking all over the place. And the addiction / betrayal aspect potential to any number of relationships or interactions that appear before you everyday...continues on and on it would appear.
Now that I see my food addiction for what it is, I can at least monitor it. That is about all I can do. I still do not feel in control. All I can do is try to steer it into healthy eating patterns. That is what I am doing. I want to be able to move better. Gain strength and stamina. Blah blah.
None of this is what I wanted to write about. I am caught between not wanting to be angry and focusing on 'inner strength'...and feeling that my best comments are made when I am angry and not afraid to say what I am thinking at the moment. I usually am right on the mark. I am saying this because this is the most boring blog entry I can imagine. I cannot imagine anyone wanting to comment or read it.
And...also....I feel it has perhaps been interferred with since I cannot get it to publish. Or maybe it takes a while to be posted. Although it didn't at the beginning.
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