A Spoil Sport or "Winning at Any Cost"

I don't want to say much here, except to say how disappointed I am.

I didn't need to be put in this position. I apologize to anyone who feels I have been 'personal'. I apologize for this outburst. (even though this was not an outburst because it was not for anyone's eyes or ears...except for me...to 'examine these thoughts'...for myself only. But these 'parked' thoughts were stolen from my computer. These thoughts and feelings ought to be open to only a few 'family' members...not the general public. This is what has always made this group very dangerous in my eyes.

I have been asked if I need help. Today also, someone 'took it upon themselves' to mention the topic of 'teeth'....knowing the reference would have to be.. to a letter that was private, non-published and hacked, and sent to no one but myself....to let off steam...privately. They wanted to commiserate. I would just say their intensions were good. Their asking though, confirmed what I have suspected just from everyone's general demeanor....no words were needed...(but I actually appreciated the 'confirmation').

My statements (in my private, non-published letter to myself alone), did not reflect a true on-going opinion....they also did not reflect anything that anyone else should be privy to...except me. They reflected a feeling of frustraton...only....momentary frustration at being VIOLATED...that is the true message of the non-published 'topics'....It is not as if this person has 'discovered' something about me that is really a reflection of my true feelings....instead of being an expression of A SENSE OF POWERLESSNESS...AND NEEDLESS POWERLESSNESS...brought on (read: manufactured) by this bizarre group.

I believe this goes under the heading of BULLIES....actually. And I beleive bullying is illegal is some parts...these days.