Lost in Toon Town vs. The Solitary Traveler

Me, of all people, would never have thought that this would have happened.....that I am lost in an illusion of such magnitude. It is a phenomena that I do not really understand yet. The phenomenum of being in Toon Town. That much I will concede. The existence of this place only became visible to me when I got so 'into' my boyfriend....to see things from his point of view. In fact, I believe at other times, I have mentioned previously, I have felt that my life had been 'appropriated' by him. This last statement was actually born out by things said by various people whom I have known. This is a 'tactic' of certain people. I am not quick on my feet like he is. I always have to put 3 and 4 together....not being able to actually decifer things as we go along....at least not to see things as most people see 'things'.

But all of this preamble is to say that: All of this makes me very very happy that I have received Knowledge and know "who I am".....that I have some OTHER PLACE to go, inside myself, when all this balony is happening.

I know this sounds very 'snooty'. I am not sure if I will post this. It is just that the illusion of 'reality' that obviously so many people live in day-in and day-out....is not of my experience. Not to this degree anyway.

I have basically just been an observer. Actually. I find it quite 'interesting'. Since most of them have their hearts closed. If they know where their hearts are. At least to me their hearts seem closed. They are looking for some\thing I do not have to give. Bright eyes and bushy tails perhaps. Mostly I feel it is better to PLAY SAFE.....and stay being with something that I know is real and also real-i-able.

I think this last sentence was a small Asperger's pun....not sure where it came from.

7:45pm
I have just finished listening to the new PeaceFlix DVD that came in the mail yesterday. One talk was called The Solitary Traveler. How wonderful. It was Prem Rawat in Brighton, UK. Even the disc looked beautiful to me.....half green, half blue....just like the tie he was wearing in the last Keys talk I listened to.

I am always amazed at how 'current' the talks are....to my own life. And yet 'nothing new' as he said...just 'about you'.