Faux Pas

They should not let me out.....at social occasions I mean. I always always always always always always mess up. I cried all the way home. Just like the little piggy I suppose.

I am totally unable to make the 'transitions'. It is the Aspergers. (And maybe Alziemers for all I know). Always always I am flying blind. Hoping against hope to be able to 'read' the cues. But always always always always I mess up. It is always in the "leavings". The "comings" seem to be easy to navigate...although this one had questionable elements to it as well.

So there we were. We had said our 'good-byes'. And I couldn't 'get to the door'. We ended up in a totally new and undesired 'conversation'.

I should not be 'let out'. Unaccompanied at any rate. If there is someone to direct the exits. Someone who knows what is going on. And how would that ever happen. So it is hopeless.

I know people mean well. But there are so many contradictions and conflicting interests to deal with. They don't know what they are up against. I know I sound like I know what is going on....only I don't.

Also there is the 'heart' vs. 'head' issue. Many people want to know about the 'heart'. They just get it mixed up with their 'head'.