I was feeling somewhat whoosy this morning at 5:30am and should have called in sick. Because of the lack of proper staffing, I felt guilty that if I did not show up it would be very 'hard' for everyone else. Unfortuneately, it turned out to be me who found it very 'hard' today. Everyone else was chatting away to each other....doing the 'small talk'...slacking off...enjoying themselves. I felt very left out. I also felt I had more work than I could handle, for it being the third day in a row, at my age, and with these very long shifts. I just ran out of gas. And I felt imposed upon because it was the usual Sunday thing.
And...I missed helping with the decorations...in the main part of the building.....so I should have gone with my first thoughts...which were to not show up for work because I had intestinal problems. No one else is that diligent I don't think...except a few maybe.
The hall downstairs looks really nice. There are going to be Christmas trees all over the place. My neighbour has tried to organize some people who like singing Christmas Carols. They practice on Saturdays...so yesterday I heard them when I came home from my break. I don't feel Christmasy yet but at least there is some activity in that area.
I have some definate health issues...and sometimes I have been getting freaked out thinking about what the future holds in that area. I feel exceptionally stressed with this job. The only advantage is I do see people now and again....if that is an advantage.
This is a dumb post...so I may not post it. There is no law that says I have to post all of them. Also I noticed when you come into look at the blog from the old url you only get old posts...from August. I am not sure how to access the new blog I guess.
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