Beyond the Pale

I have been pushed beyond my endurance level....and we will only talk about the physical aspect, not the emotional aspect, for this post. I am not going to put up with being pushed beyond endurance and into pain. That is the bottom line. They have no right to 'use' me like this. This is not, in the vaguest way, what I was told the job would entail.

This to me just reinforces my 'suspicion' that this so-called job is nothing but a sham and platform for a particular group of people to entertain themselves with their 'back door' activities. They seem to hire only certain 'types' of people anyway.

And then....when I blow because of the PAIN I am in...they turn around and accuse me of 'being the problem'. Even when I have to deal with passive aggressives who are too gutless and afraid to talk to me directly and so sabotage me , others who are totally immature and hence manipulative beyond belief, others who are in total denial.

That is the height of abuse. I have been suspicious before and now it is time that I should believe what I, myself, can see. I should believe in myself in other words that what I see is correct. Since most of these people are 'back door' types....and have no knowledge of their own hearts (although they can be shown their own hearts, their own selves...if they would care to know about that)...it is difficult to 'see' anything at the 'back door'....because you have to be in your heart to see anything that is real.