Acknowledgment-Always: from September 4, 2008

September 4, 2008 (thurs.)

8:30am
Well...today is not like yesterday. That often happens. They want me to be ‘pumped’ at work. I definately appreciate the assistance and encouragement I have been having from various people. Yesterday was a ‘god-send’, quite literally. I always disappoint myself, and I suppose everyone else, by not responding in the expected and appropriate manner, as defined by the culture. And so today I feel let-down and perhaps a little guilty....for not seeing the whole picture, in a timely and acknowledging manner.

In fact, today I am totally exhausted again, because after being ‘somewhat’ pumped, one is unable to wind-down and get to bed at an appropriate hour. This, in spite of listening to the newly created web-cast of the event on Sunday from Thousand Oaks. Prem Rawat was so wonderful, as usual. He talked about everything that is happening in my own life...right now. All my concerns. All my worries.

You see....he ACKNOWLEDGES what is true. ALWAYS.

AND...as usual....he brings the focus back to where it needs to be....to the only solution....the only solace....the only place to go, basically. Because, as he says...how kind is someone...and he is not referring to himself (as some people often think)...but how kind is someone to ‘just leave notes’ to remind us of the ‘rocks ahead’....to remind us of ‘the ditches ahead’. Just notes. That someone does not take them away...but just leaves ‘notes’.

And the reason, people who have received the Knowledge that Prem Rawat offers, appreciate and come to love him so much...is that nowhere else in this whole world...is there anyone who is capable (and capable being defined as being able to deliver what is promised)...and continues to give so much of himself to remind all that will listen....of what life is truely about.

And yesterday, I, myself, experienced all that I needed to experience...for my own well-being. And thank you to all for your efforts.

The other side of the ‘coin’ will be discussed at a later time....I suppose. My observations around the rest of his talk and my own observations as they apply to my own life....well, I am a little afraid to mention them here. Now. How about that? It is that bullying element again. That ‘recovery’ element again. And....ooopps ...there I go again. So I will stop. Right now.

Having AS...it is very very difficult....not to tell the truth. That is a documented trait of having AS. It is part of the vulnerablity encompassed in the syndrome. Like last week when it was obvious that lies were coming out of everyones mouths. Everywhere I looked. Unlike on the Webcast...where coloured processing rings seemed to pop up in particular areas of the webcast, most appropriately...perhaps intentionally by the people who made it all happen...or not. At any rate, I, myself, totally appreciated that element. I am sure I am not the only one who did.