Monday, August 25, 2008
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Busy Day
I was not a work today because I had to go to the dentist. I am always very happy when I leave there as the hygieinist is so so nice. I have a wobbly tooth though and it is giving me trouble. Also yesterday my glasses broke right in the middle of work and thankfully I could just take them up....just like a real nerd. So today I have the tiny screw back in there and they are working really fine.
I don't where the time goes. Work is insane. Soon there will on be two people left standing...and maybe not even that before too long. If I wasn't up for a challenge so much I would be hard pressed to stay also...this being probably the worst situation for someone like myself. One is totally 'out of ones own space' at this job. By that I mean one does not have a second to just breathe and feel inside oneself. I am hoping that might change...but I find myself bringing things home (as I was warned not to do..but it is impossible not to, because of the assault on your senses).
Took Monty for a walk. He was not as good as yesterday when he was a total darling. He needs many many walks througout the day before he will get the picture. And I don't have that kind of time.
My garage sale hopes have been totally crushed. But never say 'not' is my motto there and I will plod on in that area.
I don't where the time goes. Work is insane. Soon there will on be two people left standing...and maybe not even that before too long. If I wasn't up for a challenge so much I would be hard pressed to stay also...this being probably the worst situation for someone like myself. One is totally 'out of ones own space' at this job. By that I mean one does not have a second to just breathe and feel inside oneself. I am hoping that might change...but I find myself bringing things home (as I was warned not to do..but it is impossible not to, because of the assault on your senses).
Took Monty for a walk. He was not as good as yesterday when he was a total darling. He needs many many walks througout the day before he will get the picture. And I don't have that kind of time.
My garage sale hopes have been totally crushed. But never say 'not' is my motto there and I will plod on in that area.
Monday, August 18, 2008
Dinner was Great
Having to go and do a few errands before work in a few minutes...so this is just a small comment about dinner yesterday. We finally had the salmon I got about two months ago...and it was vert tasty with lemon mustard sauce and a dill rub. I also made a cauliflower salad and we had blueberries and ice cream.
This blog post is only for the record....since it is easy to forget what one does from day to day...I find at any rate.
No doggie walking. No Monty. I feel really badly about that.
This blog post is only for the record....since it is easy to forget what one does from day to day...I find at any rate.
No doggie walking. No Monty. I feel really badly about that.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Over My Funk/Must Try Harder
11:50am
I am over my hurt...now I have to decide whether or not to erase my last post. I mostly feel content, most of the time. I guess the dis-content comes when I have expectations...and Sunday mornings can bring that on, I guess. Concepts of Sunday mornings. And getting surprise phone call, out of the blue, from someone who should be calling me all the time...and should be including me in his life...as well as taking part in mine...all the time....
....well....it is hard to switch gears...and 'be nice'. Sometimes 'other emotions'..come into play.
I am just human.
That's my story. And I'm sticking to it.
I am over my hurt...now I have to decide whether or not to erase my last post. I mostly feel content, most of the time. I guess the dis-content comes when I have expectations...and Sunday mornings can bring that on, I guess. Concepts of Sunday mornings. And getting surprise phone call, out of the blue, from someone who should be calling me all the time...and should be including me in his life...as well as taking part in mine...all the time....
....well....it is hard to switch gears...and 'be nice'. Sometimes 'other emotions'..come into play.
I am just human.
That's my story. And I'm sticking to it.
So Am I
11:15am Sunday
I am really trying to be in a good mood. I am really trying 'to be nice',...as certain people say,... which mainly means you do not feel ignored, abused, lied to,exploited,condescended to....etc.etc.
Then it is easy 'to be nice'. 'Nice' being defined as obedient, fitting into a concept of 'niceness'...not voicing any complaints, etc.
So when someone phones and asks: "What's up?" , and I am feeling abandoned and alone and say I am just looking at some websites...when actually I am viewing some really beautiful cakes on a website...(but why bring that up as what would they know about that anyway...not taking part in my life in any way...and for no reason..except spite)....
....and they say: "So Am I"...(meaning looking as some websites too)...but in that tone, (I now realize) that means they are spying on me, judging me, ostrasizing me, ignoring me...and basically being cruel to me....for no reason at all....other than I don't fit into their concept of 'NICE'...and are really being condescending, secretive and abusive...and controlling...then what am I supposed to do.
Right now...I feel like going and blowing my brains out. It wouldn't matter to anyone anyway.
I am really trying to be in a good mood. I am really trying 'to be nice',...as certain people say,... which mainly means you do not feel ignored, abused, lied to,exploited,condescended to....etc.etc.
Then it is easy 'to be nice'. 'Nice' being defined as obedient, fitting into a concept of 'niceness'...not voicing any complaints, etc.
So when someone phones and asks: "What's up?" , and I am feeling abandoned and alone and say I am just looking at some websites...when actually I am viewing some really beautiful cakes on a website...(but why bring that up as what would they know about that anyway...not taking part in my life in any way...and for no reason..except spite)....
....and they say: "So Am I"...(meaning looking as some websites too)...but in that tone, (I now realize) that means they are spying on me, judging me, ostrasizing me, ignoring me...and basically being cruel to me....for no reason at all....other than I don't fit into their concept of 'NICE'...and are really being condescending, secretive and abusive...and controlling...then what am I supposed to do.
Right now...I feel like going and blowing my brains out. It wouldn't matter to anyone anyway.
Friday, August 01, 2008
Time for some Photos
I am not sure if this actually my correct blog...meaning as I write this the fonts are different and bigger than usual. But I would like to add some 'graphics'...like the ones here: Pictures of the Robin who made a nest next door to me...and some of the flowers, earlier in the year before the hail and fierce winds have beaten them down.
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