"Friends" and "Relatives"

I don't know whether to write this topic straight on, or discuss all the associations the 'quotation marks' conjure up. I can see many different layers which is why I suppose I am writing. And because of the potential for many perspectives, I should be very careful. It is at times like now that I will say things that I maybe shouldn't say....that will lead to 'trouble'.

For, I am beyond exhaustion. I should have gone right to bed and gone to sleep. Now I have gone past that point when one can relax, and I am just operating on yucky energy. I am also getting very angry. That is what can lead to saying something others will not appreciate. So I will just go slow for now.

I feel like I would like to blast a whole lot of people. But that is not a very 'conscious' thing to do. All I will do for now is applaud myself for at least getting onto the sight and starting up again. After all I see that Blogger has done a whole lot of good new things that anyone can use.

I am always this tired after having to deal with my brother's 'hospitality'. No place to sleep properly. (He thinks we should just camp out like fucking hippies). No place to get properly clean. (He thinks nobody should have a shower. They should bathe over and over in dirty water). No discussions of what he would like to see happen. (Mostly just activities done to favour HIS concepts and everyone has to fit it....or else). No clean clothes. (He thinks everyone should just live like he does...in total discomfort). (I had my same clothes on for two days and slept in them overnight...and that was for a one day trip only...just to see my mother). And the big one...No sleep...because I had to drive 3 hours x two...just to see my mother...and get up at 4:30am when I got home to go to work. And the work is not 'usual' work. It is beyond the pale of shitiness...driven on by greed and sick energy. Not normal. Slave work. For slave wages.

And I am not young. So..like I said...I will write later...on this topic. Haven't even got to the 'friends' or 'relatives' part yet.